It's ok.

This week been horrific. There are no words powerful or profound enough to even begin to describe what has happened recently. Lives lost, hearts broken and families torn apart. It seems very odd that 'business as usual' is still that - people going about their daily lives, the world not stopping. But that's how we win. Not running scared, not putting life on hold and not backing down.

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I've taken back to the blog. My first blog post for eight months, and it's one that has been keeping me going since New Year when I started writing it. I gave up on it because I felt as though it wasn't worth posting, not worth reading. I'm now looking at it with a fresh pair of eyes - if only for me, it's going out there. So here goes my 'it's ok'...



I've taken eight months off from the blog - just because, and that's ok.
I've quit my job and given myself a months grace. That's ok too.

It's ok to take time out. Everyone needs some time off. Time off from work, time off from the daily grind, time off from life. A recent holiday to Santorini (actually EIGHT months ago) really made me question how much my free time is actually worth. I worked in hospitality spending a lot of time making sure other people have a great time. Whether that be for their wedding day, a conference, a weekend away - so much of my energy went in to how someone else is feeling every single week of the year. It's rewarding and enjoyable, and I loved my job so much. As soon as that feeling started going away though, I knew I needed to do something about it. It's ok to quit. It's ok to change your mind in what you want to do - just make sure it's for you, and that it makes you happy.

It's ok to compare yourself. Everyone does it. Over the months that I've taken 'off' from the blog, I've been spending A LOT of time on social media. I've been indulging in a lot of Insta accounts for interiors inspo - when you buy a new house you instantly become some sort of sycophant trying to peep in to other peoples houses to see how they've placed a sofa in a tricky shaped room, or how they've managed to pull off a bold feature wall. So much of this time went by searching for inspiration, that I didn't actually achieve anything in my own house. I was too busy being disheartened that my house would never look as good as those I'd been stalking for so long. It wasn't only the house - it was watching minute by minute how good of a time everyone else was having and thinking I wasn't having as much fun. This is when to leave social media alone. All of the choreographed photos are there to make you feel exactly like that - you're meant to feel just that little bit jealous that someone is out there parading their 'look at me!' moment. And that's fine - it's natural.

It's ok to not take part in the 'New Me' charade. If you want to make a change, you can do it any time of the year. You don't have to wait until something else is finished, or if someone is going to join you - JUST DO IT NOW if you want to do it. I've been guilty of this in the past. I would think - in the new year I'm going to make changes, and then the new year comes and goes without a care in the world. It's obvious I didn't want to do it in the first place, but you feel as though you have to put your statement out there for the world to know before it can even happen. What chance have you got of succeeding if you're already putting up barriers before even getting started? If it means that much to you, you would start whenever the hell you wanted.

It's ok if you still don't know what you want to do when you grow up. I've asked this question to many people - people younger than me, older than me, and they don't know. I'm not sure when the moment is when you think you're doing exactly what you should be doing, or even the point when you're 'grown up'. Life passes you by far too quickly, so the best way to look at any of this would be to enjoy every single minute of it. Whether you're in your dream job or not, make time to have a good time.

Life is way too short, live it while you can regardless of what people think.

K x

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